Just one year ago today I woke up with my stomach in knots and and puffy eyes from happy/emotional-breakdown tears and basically no sleep. I was a basket of nerves as I got ready for the day that I had dreamed of, planned, hoped for, prayed for… the day I would marry my best friend, the love of my life.
My emotions had been out of control for weeks (not that I ever feel totally in control of them) and I couldn’t wait until the moment when my husband and I could drive away from our wedding and begin our future together. Specifically, a week long vacation away from wedding-planning craziness and work and regular life.
I had spent the days prior perfecting each wedding detail, DIYing my wedding flowers, spending time with family, writing the most heartfelt wedding vows, praying for our sweet little new beginning… and the day had finally come. It was a beautiful, perfect, amazing day that felt like it lasted all of 5 minutes. Nothing went wrong, but even if it had been a disastrous wedding day, it wouldn’t have mattered, because what was to follow was what called for celebration in the first place.
And what a beautiful year it has been. 365 days of learning, loving, growing, challenging each other and changing. It feels like a day, but then again somehow it feels like 10 years.
Being married has been even better than I ever imagined it. It kind of amazed me how wonderful it has been.
And a year ago I was worried. Not about the who, but about the how. How would we make it work financially? How would we not get sick of each other? How will he feel about me when I wake up with ratchet morning breath and bed head? …How can we have a truly happy marriage?
No, our relationship isn’t perfect, and yes, we fight about really dumb things sometimes, and sometimes more important things.
Yes, Bryon often neglects to re-stock the toilet paper and I often wait until the last possible day to do laundry. (And then it sits in the basket for another week and we can’t find anything. I really hate putting away laundry). Yes, it still doesn’t exctly excite me when Bryon wants to play FIFA for an entire Saturday afternoon, and yes, I still require some re-charging alone time once in a while and turn into a big crybaby if I don’t get it. I am also perpetually late to everything, which drives him crazy.
But this year, despite all of the circumstances that have come at us, have been total bliss.
Because more often then forgetting to put a new roll of toilet paper out, Bryon remembers to help me with the dishes. Less of his time is spent playing FIFA and more time cuddled up on the couch, talking about our days, dreaming together and praying about our future. We laugh and goof off more than I ever knew possible. I am so thankful for this man of mine. He is full of goodness. He truly is my best friend.
I have been in love with Bryon for 10 years now, and married to him for only one of those years. I can truly say this was, by far, the best year yet, and that I am more in love with him than ever. I am so humbled that he chose me to be his wife. To share his entire life with.
Not only have we gotten so much closer to each other in our first year of marriage, but in this act of becoming one we have both drawn so much closer to Jesus. We have had to truly rely on Him to meet our needs many times this year, with job changes, debt, and even now with our hopes and dreams for the future. God has blessed us so much this year. We have been able to serve, lead worship together, write songs together, see each other grow in confidence, and so much more. We know that no matter what these next years hold, He will never leave us or forsake us.
I know that this is just the beginning for us, but I am so thankful for this beginning. So thankful for the people who poured encouragement into us throughout our engagement. So thankful for this little love story of ours and the writer of it all. The best is yet to come.
If you are single and searching for your “person”, or married, and wishing things were different in your marriage… I only have a year under my belt, but I really encourage you to draw closer to Jesus. When you shift your focus off of self and onto Jesus, amazing things happen. He is extremely good at restoring what is broken and making it beautiful.
Thank you, Bryon Mitchell for loving me through it all and shocking me daily with your heart and compassion towards God, me, and others. I am so proud to be married to you. It was the best thing I ever said YES to. Love you always and always. Happy Anniversary!
photos taken by Kaytee Lauren Photography